My Karma is off.
Two weeks ago I ran over a dog.
I haven't gone into detail with my family, only with a couple of my colleagues. And that was just yesterday. I know there are many, many things worse in this life. But it affected me. And now I believe my Karma is off. I have fallen, tipped over a full glass of water at a restaurant, my car tire has a slow leak, my favorite colleague gave her notice yesterday, I keep breaking things, I have missed a couple of deadlines at work (I never miss deadlines), one of my doctors retired and his replacement, who is 12 years old, wants to stick a needle in my neck. I could go on, especially about happenings at work but that would be unethical. I will only say I recently had an occasion where I had to gag.
I should share that the dog survived. I called 9-1-1 who sent animal control. Both were kind people. I assume, but did not follow up, that the dog was put down.
Outside my Arlington office window I see stray dogs almost every day. They likely are neglected and abandoned. I am sure some, too, are simply lost after escaping from a loving home as my dogs have done. One time our 2 beagles were gone for 3 days. We found them living with a lovely woman about 3 miles from our house. Would you believe she let them sleep on her bed?? A sainted woman.
The stray dogs I see from my office window, especially in the summer, are seeking refuge from the heat under the oaks in the city park across from my work. A few months ago, in fact, I began carrying water and dog food in my car for these animals.
Now I am responsible for killing one.
Petal, my hairstylist and a wise woman, says I should go sit in the middle of a field and center myself. I might. I am thinking I have to volunteer for some animal group. A resuce. The dog was a mutt with pitbull features. Maybe the pitbull rescue. I haven't decided. I have decided it has to be soon. This weekend. I am running out of time. At least that's the way I feel.
I need my Karma back.